Last Week’s update

Posted By on April 4, 2016

Here’s my update on what happened with me last week while I was at work and going to do all this walking up and down the stairs. Ok, day 1 was good. I decided this is what I want to do and I was all pumped to do it. I went up and down those stairs 4 times. I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it and I did. But the next night, it was a totally different story. My legs were so sore from the night before that I didn’t even want to take 1 stair. Uh uh, no way!

Being new at this self improvement stuff, I figured I would push myself and try to do the stairs even though I really didn’t want to. It was torture! I would use some choice words here but I better not. I think I can paint you the picture quite well with just saying how awful it was. I took the stairs once during my whole shift and hated it the entire time. It sucked.

The next day I felt a bit better and actually thought that I could tackle the stairs again. Guess what? My legs still hurt but not as badly. Up the stairs I went twice. That was it. I couldn’t do anymore. The hotel was having their landscaping done and I had enough work to do without having to drag my butt up those stairs all night.

 I had my day off the next day so no stairs for me. My legs were still pretty tired. I did a lot of walking that day cause I had all this shopping to do. I don’t like shopping so I save it all for one day and get it over and done with. At the end of that day, MY LEGS WERE KILLING ME! There was no way I was going to be taking the stairs the next day at work. No way. And I didn’t.

Friday was the busiest day we had. The hotel carpets were all cleaned earlier in the week and there was some furniture rearranging that had to be done for that. The owner figured it was a great time to change things around and I got to do that during my shift so it wouldn’t impact the guests. I was sore all over.

I think I’m going to just forget this stair walking thing and maybe just walk. I think I’ll get a dog and just take it for walks. I’m done with stair climbing for self improvement.

What’s next?

Posted By on March 30, 2016

I’m trying to figure out what my next self improvement thing should be. I did THE SECRET and didn’t really get much from it. I get what they’re trying to say about intentions and all that but I don’t see how it applies to my life. Enough said.

I think my next self improvement will be on trying to get some exercise. I do walk around the hotel a fair bit in the evening. But I have to admit that I usually take the elevator. My goal is to take the stairs to the top floor at least 3 times every shift. We have 6 floors in our hotel. That’s a lot of stairs. That’s my goal for this week.

I have really comfortable shoes that I can wear which will help. The day staff has to wear low heels as part of the hotel’s image. I don’t because there aren’t too many guests up in the middle of the night. And if they are, they tend not to be overly sober and really don’t care what kind of shoes I’m wearing. This is way easier than wearing a pedometer. One of the cleaning staff showed me hers the other day. I was freaked out! That thing can count how many steps you take in a day. I figure I’ll just take the stairs instead of the elevator 3 times in each shift.

I don’t even know how many stairs that is but I don’t have to worry about hitting a certain mark on a little toy that sits on my waist. What happens if you don’t reach your 10,000 steps? Do you have to do an extra lap around the hotel to make up for it? Jog on the spot? What? I’ve got to ask Maria when I see her about what she does when she doesn’t make it to 10,000 steps.

This is my commitment for the week—I will take the stairs 3 times each shift to the 6th floor instead of taking the elevator. Maybe this is how THE SECRET works. Now that I’ve written it here for all of you to see, it will give me the inspiration and the motivation to make it happen. I have no idea if this will work but I’ll keep you posted if it does.

The Secret

Posted By on March 28, 2016

For my second post, I want to talk about getting back what you put into life. I’ve heard the old saying that you get from life what you put into it but it sounded like a bunch of BS to me. Really? What if I got into a bad car accident, was that somehow related to what I put into life when I was younger? What if I got a disease? Was that from stealing from the JC Convenience when I was young? (And just to let you know, I only did that once. I stole a raspberry Jello box. I still to this day don’t know why I took Jello instead of a candy bar but I did.) I always thought there was some cosmic score keeper who was making notes on my good behavior and my bad.

I get now that life is very different than that.

I now understand that if I focus on the negative in life then that’s all I will see. If I focus on the positive in life than that will be my perspective. It is one thing to comprehend this and a totally different one to actually put this into practice.

I am generally a pretty negative person. If you ask me about things, the answer is usually pretty negative. I don’t see the “silver lining” in situations. I just don’t. My brain doesn’t think that way. This is what I’m working on changing.

I was listening to Oprah’s Master Class about Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson. He was talking about growing up and some of the struggles he had. It was then that all this stuff clicked. I had heard it for years and years about being positive and finding the silver lining and that we make our own destinies based on our thoughts. For some reason, it clicked for me. I GOT IT!  

I have been trying really hard to find the positive in any situation. Sometimes it takes me days but eventually I get a nugget. It may be small but it’s something. I would love to say that I’ve noticed a huge change with this but I haven’t. I don’t know. Maybe in time things will change. In the meantime, I keep trying to find that damn silver lining.

My next self improvement bit will be trying the read The Secret. Oprah was all gaga over it and pretty much talked about it nonstop for the longest time. I reserved it from my public library and I go pick it up later this week. I’ve got to say that I’m looking forward to reading it to see what the big stink is all about and at the same time, I really don’t want to read it cause it probably means more work for me on changing my thinking again. It’s so weird on the one hand I want to change but on the other hand I kind of want to stay the same. I always feel so torn. Maybe I’ll find the secret in The Secret.



I have THE SECRET. No, I just have the book in my hot little hands right now. I have a roofing service coming here looking at a leak in my roof It rained hard the other day and low and behold, I got water coming through my bedroom ceiling into my bedroom. Not fun. So now, I get to spend the morning trying to stay awake while this roofer comes and climbs up on my roof and tells me how bad the whole situation is.

Until he shows up, I’m going to read THE SECRET and see what’s shaking.

Ok, I’m back. I’ve managed to read a few pages and decided that I was going to give up reading in favor of watching the DVD instead. I nearly fell asleep and I can’t do that because I’ve got to wait for this roofer to show up at my house.

I managed to find a copy of the DVD online just streamed it. It was way faster and easier than trying to sit down on my couch, not fall asleep and actually remember what I’ve read. Long story short is that this DVD has some interesting perspectives on life. I’m not actually convinced on them but, what the hey? Oprah loves it so there must be something good going on.

THE SECRET is really about opening up your intentions to the universe/God/whatever you believe in and that way you will be open to these things coming your way eventually. The author of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books tells this story how he wrote a check for $100,000 and gave it over to the universe so that in a year’s time he would receive such a check. He said he didn’t know how that money was magically going to appear but yet it did.

Now, I’ve got to say that I’m a bit skeptical. First of all, he already was an author and someone coming and writing a check for that amount is not without the realm of possibility. Now, if I were to write a check for $100,000 and paste it to my wall, it is unlikely that someone will write me a check in that amount given that I work in a hotel as a night manager. Unless some really generous guest wants to just write me a check just because he or she feels I deserve it, I can’t see any way that I would ever get that kind of money.

I think you have to be realistic about your intentions for the universe with THE SECRET. For me, I think writing a check for $100 is more realistic. Or maybe the point is that you’re supposed to be way out there in your intentions so that these things might happen. I don’t know. I’m highly skeptical that any of this can work. I really don’t believe in coincidences so I don’t really get this whole concept. Maybe I’ll get it in a little bit. In the meantime, my silver lining is that I found the DVD of this book and didn’t have to spend hours reading the book.


Posted By on March 28, 2016

I love traveling I think I started to love traveling when I was a kid. Every summer, my parents would load up our car and we would travel down to my grandma’s place in the Maritimes. I wish I could say that I loved the whole thing but it was pretty boring sometimes. This was a time long before the internet and video games. We had to make up our own games.

My sister and I would sit in the back seat and try to see how many out of state license plates we could see. We could sometimes do quite well and get into the teens. Other times, it wasn’t so easy. We would also play “I Spy”. That was good for a while but was hard to do because we were moving and it you didn’t pick something far enough up ahead, sometimes you would never guess it right.

Other times, we just napped, read our books and then traded them with each other to give us something to do. My dad didn’t like to stop much cause he wanted to get there. Grandma owned a cell phone repair and roofing business that my grandpa left to her when he died. All of us thought for sure that grandma would sell it but she didn’t. She was actually pretty good at running that business.

My sister and I liked the rest stops the best. We would get to run around and check out the washrooms and the tourist centers. There were lots of people around and we got to hear different languages and see all sorts of kinds of people. Mom would pack a lunch and my dad would have 45 minutes on the clock and then we were off again. We would drive for 2 days and then late on the second day, we would arrive at grandma’s house. That was always so nice. We were so tired from driving yet so excited to arrive that no matter how tired we were, we would have problems falling asleep once we went to bed.

I think those early childhood trips are what sparked the traveling bug in me. I have traveled all over the world but some of my fondest memories were when I was a kid driving in my parent’s car to visit my grandma every summer.

About Me

Posted By on March 28, 2016

My name is Jenny and I’m 46 years old. I have been interested in self improvement for the last 2 months or so. I used to be very overweight for most of my life. About 2 months ago, I hurt my back really badly when I slipped down some icy stairs in front of my house. I ended up twisting my back and was in miserable pain. I ended up pretty much laying down for the next 2 weeks. I was bruised and so sore. I had problems sleeping and I felt awful.

If this had happened to me when I was a lot younger, say in my early 20s, I would have bounced back and been right as rain after a day or so. Being in my early 40s, I didn’t bounce back. It was horrible. But it made me think about my life and where I was going with it. And was it headed where I had always dreamed it had?

When I was in my early 20s, I had hoped that by the time I had reached middle age, that I would be living life pretty much happier than ever with my kids and the love of my life beside me. Maybe I’d watched too much Oprah and was too optimistic about life. Fast forward 20 years and the love of my life never really appeared (or not yet at least) and I have no children. I had really wanted kids but it somehow never worked out. I have to say that it sucks cause I think I would have made a great mom.

I am working as the night manager in a hotel. They need someone to check people in and out of the hotel and generally be there in case of any emergency. It’s a great job because it’s quiet most of the time. I don’t work with a lot of people and that’s fine by me. The hotel is a very different place in the day. I like it at night cause there aren’t a lot of people around to bug me and I can really do what I feel like doing without someone being over my shoulder all the time asking me questions.

All this self improvement stuff started when I hurt myself. I had plenty of time to think about my life and where it was and where I had hoped it would go. I have to admit that where I thought I’d be in my 40s is vastly different from where I actually am. I remember Oprah talking about her 40s being some of the best years of her life. It hasn’t felt that way to me. So I thought I’d start looking at improving myself and my life. I would like to tell you that my life magically changed and that I’m suddenly happy. I’m not. I don’t know if this self improvement stuff will actually work so I figured I’d share my journey with you all since it seems to be the thing everyone else is doing.

I plan on starting small and I plan on staying small for the time being. Eventually, I want to start exercising and changing my diet or that is the goal right now. We’ll see once I get a little further down the road. Right now I’m focused on changing my thinking and seeing how a little change in thought might have an impact on my life.

Hey, you might get something out of this too. If you don’t, then maybe I will. And if I don’t then self improvement isn’t something for me. If you feel the burning need to contact me, you can do so through my contact page